Initiation Into the Science Called “Rulilulvis”

Animals do not have a sense of "I", they are aware of the external world, their desires, feelings and aspirations, but their consciousness has not reached the degree of self-awareness, they are not able to think of themselves as separate creatures and reflect on their thoughts. They do not possess the consciousness of the divine spark - "I", that is, the true self.

Although the divine spark is hidden in all forms of life, even the lowest. A low-level person has many shells that block light, but even in darkness there is a fraction of light. She sleeps in the mind of the savage and gradually opens up, begins to throw her light. In a person who begins to strive for knowledge, it is already struggling with the surrounding darkness, and its rays are trying to penetrate through the material coverings. When the true “I” begins to awaken from his dream, his dreams gradually leave him and begins to see the world as it is and recognize himself, who he really is, and not in those distorted images that his dreams showed him. A savage or barbarian is poorly aware of his “I”, since he is slightly higher than the animal in terms of consciousness, and his “I” is exclusively absorbed in the consciousness of the needs and requirements of the body,  satisfaction of desires and passions, achieving personal security, striving for a primitive manifestation of power. In a wild man, the “I” is in the lower part of the instinctive mind, and if the savage could analyze his thoughts, he would say that “I” is a physical body, and his body has feelings, needs and desires. The “I” of such a person is the physical “I” - the body represents the form and substance of this “I”. This is unfortunately true not only of the savage, but among the so-called civilized people of our time, we see very many at this stage of development. They have developed their thinking and logical abilities, but they do not know how to live “inside their minds” as others do. They use their thinking abilities only to satisfy bodily desires and passions and live exclusively on the plane of the instinctive mind. Such people can talk about “their mind” and “their soul” not from above, as a person who has comprehended the true “I” looks at the mind and soul, but from below, from the point of view of a person who lives on the plane of the instinctive mind and sees above himself the spiritual and mental attributes as the highest properties of his "I". For such people, “I” is a body, their “I” is connected with their sensory nature and darkness that reaches them through the senses.

Of course, a person, moving forward along the path of culture and civilization, gradually educates his feelings and begins to be satisfied with more refined things, while a less cultured person is satisfied with material and gross pleasures. A lot of what we call culture is only a culture of more subtle forms of mental pleasure and not at all a real movement along the path of revealing the inner forms of consciousness. True, people who study the occult have such developed abilities that often exceed the abilities of an ordinary person, but in such cases the feelings are constantly cultivated under the rule of the will and become servants of the "I", instead of hindering on the path to progress; they are subordinate to “I”, whereas before they ruled over it.

Developing, a person begins to acquire a different concept of his “I”. He gradually uses “his mind” and reason and starting to live on a more mental plane, gives the mind an opportunity to manifest its intellectual power. At the same time, a person finds that he has something higher than the body, that his mind is more real than his bodily nature, and during deep reflection he is almost able to forget about the existence of his body.

In this second stage, a person is surrounded by many incomprehensible problems. Questions appear that he cannot find answers to, and as soon as it seems to him that the answer has been found, problems arise before him in a new and more difficult form and he has to “explain his explanation”. The mind, when it is not completely controlled by the will and does not fully control its actions, has tremendous abilities and before it a huge field of achievements. But it is here that a person finds that he is constantly walking in a circle and continuously feels that the unknowable surrounds him from all sides.

This very much confuses him, and the more he achieves in the field of "book knowledge", the more his confusion grows. A person of little knowledge does not see the existence of many problems that forcibly break into the consciousness of a person of great knowledge and require an explanation. The torment of a person who reaches a high degree of mental growth, which makes him see new problems and the impossibility of solving them, is unimaginable to a person who has not reached such heights of development.

At this stage of consciousness, a person thinks of his “I” as of the mind being in the body of a kind of lower comrade. He feels that he has gone far ahead, but at the same time he realizes that his “I” does not give the answer to all the questions and riddles that torment him. He feels very unhappy, and such people often become pessimists and view life as sheer evil and disappointment - more a curse than a blessing. A pessimist is a person absorbed in purely material interests, and a spiritual person does not bear the curse of pessimism. The first, i.e. man is absorbed in physical life, does not have such restless thoughts, he is almost entirely immersed in the satisfaction of his animal nature. On the other hand, a spiritual person recognizes his mind as only his instrument, and does not identify himself with it. He knows that the mind is a very imperfect tool that he is forced to use at this stage of his development.

This person knows that he himself contains the keys to all knowledge and that these keys lie in the “I” itself. A developed mind, properly trained under the guidance of an awakened will, can find these keys and use them.

To be continued...